Bottles are for Babies...except this baby!

I have been thinking about this blog for a while.  I was going to wait and write it when I had a happier ending, but so far..no dice.  Before I had Olivia I thought it was just a given that all babies take bottles.  You read and hear a lot about babies that have problems latching to the breast or refusing to breast feed.  I had never even heard of a baby refusing a bottle, it's not really talked about very often.  Here is my experience with battling the bottle.

Since I got pregnant I had this irrational fear that I would not be able to breast feed. Maybe because all I heard was how wonderful it was and what a special bond that it creates between mother and baby.  At the hospital I delivered at you are practically shunned if you don't breastfeed.  So imagine my surprise when my little nugget latched right on and my supply was enough to feed two babies!  Now, don't get me wrong, it hurt like whoa in the beginning and I still get engorged and leak almost 5 months out.  I read and was told by many lactation experts not to introduce a pacifier or a bottle for 3 to 4 weeks or she would get nipple confusion and never ever eat from me again and starve to death.  Not really, but they made me feel like that.  So wait I did.  On Olivia's 1 month birthday I decided to try a bottle.  I pumped a fresh bottle and put her little bib on and I was all ready to do this thing...until she spit every drop of milk that landed in her mouth out and cried for a full 15 minutes.  I was not deterred.  I decided to let my husband give it a try since I had read that this trick may work, but she still wouldn't eat.  I decided to give it a few days and try again.

I tried every trick in the book.  Over the next couple of months every person, of bottle feeding age, in my family has tried giving her the bottle.  I tried wrapping the bottle in a t shirt of mine.  I even wore a little lovie blanket in between my boobs for an entire day and then wrapped that around the bottle.  I tried Dr. Browns, Medela, Avent, Avent Natural, Tomee Tippee, Lansinoh Momma, Mumimuji, Comotomo, Playtex Nursers (both nipples) all with no luck. I tried the milk really warm and really cool.  I tried laying in the bed like I nurse her at night.  I did everything but stand on my head to try to get this child to take a bottle and then...
I stopped

The realization is my child, for whatever reason, does not like a bottle right now.  I have been exhausting myself trying to make this work and it is just not.  I think one of the main reasons I kept on was outside pressure.  When people have a hard time breast feeding and eventually have to give it up people sympathize and then accept it as normal for the baby to take a bottle.  When I tell people my baby does not take a bottle at all they look at me like I have three heads.  I get the normal questions like "don't you feel smothered?" and "I guess you have no life at all".  Is it challenging at times, yep.  Do I hate hiding in the car or in the bathroom of places to nurse her if I want to be gone from the house for more than a couple of hours, yep.  Do I feel a little pressure because I am the ONLY one she relies on for nourishment, yep.  All of that being said, I love my baby girl with all of my heart and I know that I am doing what is best for her. My answer to those people now is actually I do have a life. It is a little different than I imagined, but even better.  I do have an amazing bond with my sweet girl.  I am not saying that it is more or less than what other moms have, it is just special to me. I also in no way think I am any better than other moms who bottle feed.  When I stopped trying to force the bottle I actually started enjoying her feeding times again.  Let me get mushy for a minute.  I love when she looks up at me with those bright blue eyes and rests her little chubby hand on my chest.  I love when she curls her little legs into me and snuggles close during night time feeds. I can't help but smile back when she grins from ear to ear and milk spills out of her little mouth, haha.  My point is, you can have a very happy, well adjusted, sweet baby no matter whether the babe prefers a bottle or a boob ;)  You just have to find what works for you and go with it.

I debated whether to share my story because it is very personal to me, but I thought if only one other mommy out there can relate it would be worth it.  I do have high hopes that she will warm up to a bottle after she starts eating food at 6 months, but if she does not I am not going to stress myself out.  What I have come to realize is that time is passing by so quickly these days.  Yesterdays huge issues are becoming tomorrows laughs.  My motto with mommyhood has become "you do what you gotta do".  Would it be easier if my child ate from a bottle occasionally, yes, but I would not trade a minute with her if I could.  I thank God every day for this tiny miracle and I am just so lucky to be her mommy.  I will keep you updated on her progress with food.  I am going to make her baby food and I am pumped about it!!!

I do have to give props to my hubs.  He has been nothing but supportive through this whole thing.  I know to some this may seem like a trivial thing to worry about, but try telling that to a crazy hormonal woman.  He has been satisfied with her coming along on date nights and he even keeps me company in the car when I have to feed her.  She does go to bed at 7 pm every night so we get lots of alone time together at night too. It makes me love him even more and I love our little family more than words.


Here is a little cuteness to end the day!

 You want me to drink outa what???




2 comments

  1. Definitely something I have learned as a mother is to do what is best for your child! All kids are different and no matter what you do everyone is gonna always have an opinion! Keep doing what your doing! From what I can tell your an awesome mother! She is precious by the way and I enjoy reading your blog!

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    1. Thanks so much for your kind words and for reading along with me :) You can try so hard to be perfect and then you just have to let it go and let life happen! Thanks again!

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